Autumn in the Midwest...

 It’s one of the best times of the year. Along with Halloween, pumpkin patches and the changes of the leaves make for some epic photos.

BBQ and Love

 Tried a BBQ joint near town, tasty and affordable. Went with my parents. My fave people.

It’s fall y’all

 Well almost. Still a little warm for my taste but it’s comin and I couldn’t be more excited. Looking forward to taking some good fall pics on Sunday at the pumpkin patch. Def an Midwest chick. Love my seasons and chilly weather!

Trucker appreciation week

My dad is the most wonderful hardworking man I know. Love him so much, safe Truckin daddy.

 

Writing

 Writing has been therapeutic for me. Random thoughts that don’t mean anything to anyone but makes me feel understood and heard to just write as if I’m more important than I am...

Had a long night but sober and just evaluating the evening and myself...

I always end up falling asleep to beauty and the beast after a night of drinking...somehow I stand up for what I believe right in hopeless situations....love having my kitty here when I come home, what a precious animal.

I guess what I’m getting at is I’m a good human. I really try and mean well. I’m so lost and confused and empty right now but I’ll keep fighting the good fight and enjoy those moments of peace and try to remind myself I’m not a garbage human. Having  a night out without John...I was sad hoping he is well but knowing he is getting wasted and also seeing its slim pickings out there so I get why people settle or stay single...what a night.

I care so much for him but don’t want to be his girlfriend. It’s strange. Just want to turn off and feel something good. I get so exhausted trying to be good all the time. Thankful for the good humans I know. Taking it a day at a time right now.

Good day sunshine

 Got the Beatles playing on vinyl, some fall weather rolling in and made a delicious plate for lunch. Sitting outside with my kitty and just really enjoying my life today. Be well folks.

Labor Day

I wanted to wait until next spring/summer to buy a house. There is an adorable little place in town for sale 95k. Hard to pass up. The inside could be fixed up but the location is lovely, looks out at trees and wildflowers behind me. Going to look at it tomorrow, don't want to get a head of myself like last time.

I took a walk with mama today, bought a fire pit! Weather permitting I'll be able to use with the neighbors this evening...like rain though. I'm snugged on the couch with my tea and a good book until then...it was a good day. Had dinner with John the other night to patch things over with the break up, we might actually be able to be friends after this. I do miss him, love him still. He loves me completely. Who knows in time...I have remind myself why I did it in the first place and not get caught up in emotion of missing him and being lonely at times. We both need to be apart right now and I will need to see some consistent change to even consider.

Our beautiful earth

 Gives us so much beauty...plants, vegetables. Got cold weather comin and cookin out today, wanted to capture the beauty.

Soul filler

 Today filled my soul. Visited with Brad’s family. Road a golf cart and four wheeler, visited their garden and tried okra fresh off the plant, kittens and dog lovings in the sun and beautiful weather on the patio. Just a good day. Don’t want to forget it.